why do people have to be so smart and overachievers?! 09.20.

10:33 pm Uncategorized

ughhhhhh so I want to apply to some universities in my state. Specifically Northwestern and University of Chicago. Has anyone been to the college confidential forums? Well I was looking at the subforums for these schools and these people have amazinggggg profiles. Like 30 on the ACT, a millions extra curriculars, a million volunteer hours, top 5% of the class, 3.99, etc. and people are just like “ehh thats not good enough to get in” and i’m like WTF, if THAT isn’t good enough to get in, what is?! I was thinking about applying but I do not even compare to these people that want to get in. I would say i’m average, and I would prefer not to share my details because they aren’t spectular lol. sheesh. This sucks. I dont know where I want to go to college now. I’m thinking I will just go to community college and transfer to some average school. As much as I would love to attend a top school, I probably have a 1% chance of getting accepted. what to doo, i’m too stressed. This weekend is going by too fast too. I slept all day and I have lots of homework to do. I’m trying to write some essays for the colleges I was going to apply to..but im too lazy

Jenn Sandra Tiffany Sahil

parade 09.19.

4:26 pm Uncategorized

so i just got home from the homecoming parade and yet again i feel stupid. why? I threw candy at someone’s car! haha whoops. Everybody throws candy from their floats, and everybody in the community is usually lined up around the loop. so as we were getting to the school and finishing it was starting to get dead. The tennis team was right behind us and someone told me to throw candy at them. and I was like oook! so I threw a tootsie roll, but of course with my horrible eye hand cordination, I threw it at the windshield of the car that was driving them. and the teacher that was driving it looked pissed. I felt so stupiddddd omgggg. I was like =o IM SORRY!! and then I tried not to look back again because I felt really dumb =( I hope I didnt like break the windshield or scratch the carr…gosh my life sucks with my stupidity. I just want to curl up in a little ball right now. lol

Jenn

homecoming week almost over! 09.18.

9:33 pm Uncategorized

ahhhh so my stressful week is almost over. Actually its really not, but I like to think so. Well I did okay in our variety show. I kind of messed up a little, but people said it wasn’t noticable. You remember the speech I was freaking out about? well I did horrible. ughhhhh i feel soo stupid. When i get nervous, I stutter and mumble my words together. So you can’t really understand me. ugh I felt really stupid, I don’t even know what I said! It was just a spur of the moment thing, whatever was in my head I just said it. It lasted like 30 seconds with some awkward pauses. lmao soo yeaah i’m just glad that was over with! Tomorrow is the homecoming parade which we get to be in for the first time since we don’t have a meet! woo! we haven’t had time to decorate our float, so i’m pretty sure its going to suck cuz we will just be in a plain flatbead truck. Oh well. Saturday is the actual homecoming dance. I’m not going. This week has been so stressful, and I dont want to worry about anything else. I dont want to worry about what im going to wear, who I was going to ask, where we were going, how i’m going to pay for it, etc.. so I decided not to go. Besides this weekend, I have to work on my college stuff. I’m applying to a few early decision schools and I need to work on my essays and whatnot. and I have to decide where I actually want to gooo. I’m so confused about everything!

School is kicking my butt right now. I totally failed my physics test with a 68%! booo I suck at that class. Today I missed everything because I had to leave for a meet. so now I will be even more lost. Spanish is sucking because I hate it! I have to do a dialogue with someone and a demonstration speech in spanishhhh obviously and thats due soon. American novel is killing me, because I am the slowest reader and I can’t finish a book in 3 days, which I end up doing bad on quizzes cuz I have no clue whats going on. Psych and sociology are okay, but I havent really been paying attention cuz I have been doing homework that I haven’t done the night before while the teacher teaches. and ughhh idk i’m still stressed! I’m just glad i won’t have to worry about homecoming this weekend, but I do have to worry about running, because we have a HUGE invitational, and think I pulled a quad muscle in practice a couple days ago. it hurts.

oh and that reminds me, I had a college call me yesterday and said they wanted me to run for them. I have never heard of it before i forget the name. Benedectine or something? Somewhere near chicago. Well I was pretty set on not running in college because I wanted to focus 100% on school. Until she told me that they were a division 3 school, and that means they are more focused on school than sports so they are more flexible with schedules and such. Which i never knew and found interesting. I don’t know if I want to run in college or not, still deciding! adding to my stressful eventss.

i’m going to go know cuz I just got back from our variety show and bonfire and i’m stinky and tired! and have lots of homework to do! gahhh peaaace