people need to grow up 10.11.
1:13 pm Uncategorizedso today we had a cross country meet and I did really good! I was so proud of myself woo I ran 16:15ish and got 23rd place out of a million. That was my best time everrrr in my wholeeee life! haha so I was super excited. I’m scared for next week though, because its our conference! and I want to make first team soo bad but thats the top 9 people. I dont know if I am that fast 
maybe if I could drop down to a 16:00 I would have a chance! but anywho that is the good news for the day.
As you can see by my title I am bothered by some other problems. I am starting to dislike people in general and I dont know why? I feel like I am hanging around toxic people too much and it is getting to me.
Who are the severely toxic people?
They are the ones who complain all the time. They are the ones who always blame you. They may always turn things around so things you felt they had done wrong are suddenly your fault. They overreact to bad events.
They drain your energy. It may be that they get you to spend a lot of time and emotional strength trying to cheer them up. They may bombard you with their negativity so that you have to spend energy trying to fend it off. Perhaps their constant pessimism infects you, or they always make you angry. They may be leeches who feed themselves by making you give them your positivity.
My friends aren’t my friends they irritate me more than anything. For example, we have a new psychology teacher and I think shes awesome. She’s is the happiest person you will ever meet, and is always smiling. My whole class HATES her for being so happy and energetic everyday, and they always crack jokes about her. I really don’t understand how someone being happy makes you hate them? It makes me happy and smile when I see her because she makes me laugh and puts off a good vibe, but my whole class hates her and I am the only one that likes her. People are just immature. Honestly we are adults now, so try acting like one? This kid on my team has like the most negative attitude and is just rude. He puts me in a bad mood cuz he always comments on everything I do. and is like “ugh dude thats stupid”, “your mom”, “this sucks” and curses every other word. I don’t even talk to my friends anymore because they just irritate me and don’t care about anything. For example, one of my friends totally ignores me when she is around other people. I don’t think she talked to me at all today in the whole 6 hours the team spent together. When we get back some of her other friends were outside and shes all like “hey we are going to a haunted house tonight, you should come!” and I was just thinking umm thanks for asking me once again? OH and another thing, she told me that I was taking her home and that we had to stop by her friends house to get stuff, so I was waiting for her to get done talking so we could leave. and then she was like “um your not taking me home, kyle is” and I was like what the fuck? are you serious right now? You JUST told me I was taking you home, and I was waiting for like 10 minutes when I could have left and she says shes riding with her ex. Shes stupid. Seriously, I hate her sometimes. and shes always wants to be the center of attention and she wants everyone to recognize her. When I do homework and help her, she gets a good grade and doesnt even say thanks. When I ask her to help ME, she says no and to do it myself. When I give her advice about things she would never know about, she just takes it and uses it to her advantage. When I ask her for advice about something shes done, she beats around the bushes and never tells me anything because she wants to be on top. I hate that. I’m never going to help her with anything again. She takes advantage of me sometimes, and what kind of friend does that? A selfish one.
I’m ready for college. I am hoping that there are people who act like adults. High school is stupid and filled with fakes. People pretending to be something that they aren’t. Cliques and favoring people. Sucking up to climb the social ladder. being used and ditched. sounds fun huh? The reality is, when you go off to college, you won’t see those “friends” again so why bother? Why bother to try so hard to please them, when they don’t care about you at all. I just want to meet someone in my life that is genuinely a good friend.
Aw, Mark :(.
I’m very sorry about all of that.
And I honestly can sympathize with you, because I can relate.
The sad thing is that I am struggling with such a similar issue right now, and I am already in college! However, the thing is that I am struggling with a “friend” who I’ve know since high school (even middle school and the year I spent in elementary), so I guess in a way, it’s still sort of a high school thing. One would think that knowing a friend for that long would make for a really strong bond, but no…lol.
I feel she takes advantage of me too. All she ever does is talk about herself, and I always listen. Whenever I bring up a subject about myself, she interrupts me with something completely different, or just something that has to do with her, once again. She’s very self absorbed. Lately, I’ve been speaking to her less, because luckily I have a friend (or two) who is willing to listen to me, no matter how stupid and insignificant my problem is. So, as always, I do the same for her, because I appreciate that she does for me. But the friend I speak of, she just wants to talk about anything that has to do with her, other than that, it’s completely useless. It’s become annoying to me where I am beginning to treat her as she does to me, which is not good :s. But I can’t help it. I have always been one to follow the whole, “treat one as you want to be treated”, and I sort of believe that everyone does too (or I do purposely, haha), so if someone treats me kindly, or rudely, then they should expect the same. I know that she is starting to realize that. Oh well.
Anyway, I’m sure that you will find a REAL, and good friend in the future, or maybe sooner than you think! Why? Because you deserve one, as good of a person that you are! Don’t worry about those other “friends”, just as you said, they won’t matter in the long run!