homecoming week almost over! 09.18.

ahhhh so my stressful week is almost over. Actually its really not, but I like to think so. Well I did okay in our variety show. I kind of messed up a little, but people said it wasn’t noticable. You remember the speech I was freaking out about? well I did horrible. ughhhhh i feel soo stupid. When i get nervous, I stutter and mumble my words together. So you can’t really understand me. ugh I felt really stupid, I don’t even know what I said! It was just a spur of the moment thing, whatever was in my head I just said it. It lasted like 30 seconds with some awkward pauses. lmao soo yeaah i’m just glad that was over with! Tomorrow is the homecoming parade which we get to be in for the first time since we don’t have a meet! woo! we haven’t had time to decorate our float, so i’m pretty sure its going to suck cuz we will just be in a plain flatbead truck. Oh well. Saturday is the actual homecoming dance. I’m not going. This week has been so stressful, and I dont want to worry about anything else. I dont want to worry about what im going to wear, who I was going to ask, where we were going, how i’m going to pay for it, etc.. so I decided not to go. Besides this weekend, I have to work on my college stuff. I’m applying to a few early decision schools and I need to work on my essays and whatnot. and I have to decide where I actually want to gooo. I’m so confused about everything!

School is kicking my butt right now. I totally failed my physics test with a 68%! booo I suck at that class. Today I missed everything because I had to leave for a meet. so now I will be even more lost. Spanish is sucking because I hate it! I have to do a dialogue with someone and a demonstration speech in spanishhhh obviously and thats due soon. American novel is killing me, because I am the slowest reader and I can’t finish a book in 3 days, which I end up doing bad on quizzes cuz I have no clue whats going on. Psych and sociology are okay, but I havent really been paying attention cuz I have been doing homework that I haven’t done the night before while the teacher teaches. and ughhh idk i’m still stressed! I’m just glad i won’t have to worry about homecoming this weekend, but I do have to worry about running, because we have a HUGE invitational, and think I pulled a quad muscle in practice a couple days ago. it hurts.

oh and that reminds me, I had a college call me yesterday and said they wanted me to run for them. I have never heard of it before i forget the name. Benedectine or something? Somewhere near chicago. Well I was pretty set on not running in college because I wanted to focus 100% on school. Until she told me that they were a division 3 school, and that means they are more focused on school than sports so they are more flexible with schedules and such. Which i never knew and found interesting. I don’t know if I want to run in college or not, still deciding! adding to my stressful eventss.

i’m going to go know cuz I just got back from our variety show and bonfire and i’m stinky and tired! and have lots of homework to do! gahhh peaaace