yes i’m a looser 08.30.
11:20 am Uncategorizedso yesterday, my friend who I’ve been taking to school, asked me if I wanted to go to our schools football game. I said no because of several reasons. Football games aren’t really my thing. There are two reasons why people go, to watch or to socialize. Well i’m not a fan of watching especially since our school sucks anyways. I don’t talk to the people she hangs out with either. Well I mean I do, but I feel very fake around them, like I have to put on act to “fit in”..so its not the most comfortable situation. So lately I feel that she has drifted more to the “popular group” but whatever. It seems like she wants to be the center of attention more and more. I miss our old group. With our real friends, which was small. We used to do something with just us every friday or saturday, but not anymore. It sucks. It’s just weird to know how much you have drifted from your friends throughout high school. but yeah I ended up staying home on a friday night, which is what i usually do now. Not that i’m upset about that since I get to relax, but its just different. I tend to shy away from places she invites me to lately because I dont talk to those people. The people who are very stuck up and snobby, the people who have a million dollars, the people who drink and party everyother day, the people who are just immature. I’m at the point in my life where I honestly don’t give a shit about being popular or having everyone know me. I’m not going to do stupid and fake things to fit in. I’m almost in college and there is obviously more important things to be worrying about than trying to climb the social ladder.
Anywho, I just ready for high school to be over. I just want to do well in school and cross country. Get involved in school more and things like that. Everyone loves high school so much, and I hate it. Lots of bad memories and things happen in high school. I just want to start college fresh. I want a blank slate, somewhere I can meet new people and prepare for the real life.
well that was a long rant hehe thanks for reading if you did! I know everyone likes short stuff, but its hard for me to cut things short =p
On another note, my coach asked the captains if we wanted to speak at our school’s bonfire (its like a tradition and we have a HUGE bonfire). Well I said “yes” even though I knew I didnt want to. I hate speaking in front of people and this is going to be like our whole school. I dont even know WHAT im going to say!? I hope I dont look stupid, gosh i’m already nervous thinking about it. Anywho he asked the girl’s team captain and she was like “no, mark can do it” and i was just like uhh thanks? so I’ll be up there by myself looking like a fool. Its in 2 and a halfish weeks though so I have time to think.
The bonfire speech thing is funny. Have fun with that. I don’t like speaking in front of crowds either. As for the friends thing, at least she’s making an effort to get you to become involved with her life. It’s not like she’s completely ditching you for the populars. My schoolyear hasn’t even started and I’m already wishing it was June 2009.
I hope you get all your friends back, and i hope the girl realizes shes missing out on.. i mean i think everyone pretty much wishes they were “popular”, hopefully she will realize true friends mean more then that
thanks for commenting back
and btw i read your about me.. i like to read them, to know who i am commenting online… i just like to know who people are in a way… to see if they are “creepy” or “odd”. And to not creep you out, you seem like a male older version of me. lol
1.i do not look traditional asian; im very americanize
2.i speak perfect english, i can not speak chinese…
3.i hate milk.. so i rarely drink it.. i should tho
4.i dont love running, i like it (sometimes), i never did xc or track because i never had time, but i really wnat to do track cause i think it will help me with field hockey (and xc and Fh are in the same season so i can’t do both)
5.i always feel pressured to do well cause i am “asian” but i am horrible at math; i am much better at SS and english which most asians aren’t as good in.
6.im not shy, but i am easily intimidated which i guess in most cases, are pretty much the same thing.. if i think you are intimidating, i would not talk to you…
yep, sorry if you didn’t want to hear me blab about how i think we are like.. then sorry. lol
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don’t worry, throughout high school i never really went out either. you’re not missing anything, right??
i drifted from one group of friends to another all throughout high school, but after graduation it didn’t mean anything because i met a lot of new people here throughout college…. i think i like my college friends more than any of my previous high school friends because in high school it was always drama… blah!
I don’t try hard to fit in with people anymore, I mean, my year group basically all get along (apart from the imature ones who still think its funny to pick on people).