yes i’m a looser 08.30.

11:20 am Uncategorized

so yesterday, my friend who I’ve been taking to school, asked me if I wanted to go to our schools football game. I said no because of several reasons. Football games aren’t really my thing. There are two reasons why people go, to watch or to socialize. Well i’m not a fan of watching especially since our school sucks anyways. I don’t talk to the people she hangs out with either. Well I mean I do, but I feel very fake around them, like I have to put on act to “fit in”..so its not the most comfortable situation. So lately I feel that she has drifted more to the “popular group” but whatever. It seems like she wants to be the center of attention more and more. I miss our old group. With our real friends, which was small. We used to do something with just us every friday or saturday, but not anymore. It sucks. It’s just weird to know how much you have drifted from your friends throughout high school. but yeah I ended up staying home on a friday night, which is what i usually do now. Not that i’m upset about that since I get to relax, but its just different. I tend to shy away from places she invites me to lately because I dont talk to those people. The people who are very stuck up and snobby, the people who have a million dollars, the people who drink and party everyother day, the people who are just immature. I’m at the point in my life where I honestly don’t give a shit about being popular or having everyone know me. I’m not going to do stupid and fake things to fit in. I’m almost in college and there is obviously more important things to be worrying about than trying to climb the social ladder.

Anywho, I just ready for high school to be over. I just want to do well in school and cross country. Get involved in school more and things like that. Everyone loves high school so much, and I hate it. Lots of bad memories and things happen in high school. I just want to start college fresh. I want a blank slate, somewhere I can meet new people and prepare for the real life.

well that was a long rant hehe thanks for reading if you did! I know everyone likes short stuff, but its hard for me to cut things short =p

On another note, my coach asked the captains if we wanted to speak at our school’s bonfire (its like a tradition and we have a HUGE bonfire). Well I said “yes” even though I knew I didnt want to. I hate speaking in front of people and this is going to be like our whole school. I dont even know WHAT im going to say!? I hope I dont look stupid, gosh i’m already nervous thinking about it. Anywho he asked the girl’s team captain and she was like “no, mark can do it” and i was just like uhh thanks? so I’ll be up there by myself looking like a fool. Its in 2 and a halfish weeks though so I have time to think.

Tiffany Evtiff Lianna Lucy

why are people so stupid? 08.27.

5:16 pm Uncategorized

i’ve just been in a bad mood today because everyone has been getting on my nerves. For example, in spanish we have an open note test tomorrow. and I type out all my notes when I get home so I will be more organized and such. Well nobody in that class even takes notes, so when we were reviewing today, and someone saw my notes they were like “hey can you print me off one!” and then everyone starts asking me, and I have a problem with being too nice. However, I was getting frustrated because I spent an hour or more every night compiling my notes from the day on the computer. and I’m not just going to let my hardwork go to waste and give it to other people who are too lazy and dont do work themselves. but I feel really mean when I say no because then everyone will be like damn mark is an ass. but whatever, you gotta do what you got to do. Today after practice when we were stretching, I had to go to the bathroom so everyone got started stretching without me. I’m always in the front because the captains are in the front leading the stretches. Well another senior on our team decides he wants to stay up there and I tell him to move. and he was being very stupid about it. He was like NO I GOT HERE FIRSTTTT. and I was already mad from the day and I didn’t want to fight with him so I was just like whatever. and then one of the other wannabe captains was like “Mark you are more of a captain than him, you aren’t doing a very good job of being a captain!” and I was just like “I dont want to fight with him, so I really don’t care.” People are just irrating me lately. Yes, our coach told me I was a captain privately, but I don’t go around and boast about my power and tell everyone to bow down. Thats the only reason why anyone wants to be captain on our team, because they want to tell people what to do. While yes, that is what captains do, but they also have to be respectful and be able to handle things in a mature way. Yes I am a captain and I SHOULD be at the front of the line, but i’m not going to curse him out and make him move. Being a captain is a person that your other teammates should look up to and trust me, you don’t want to look up to this kid. He doesn’t even come to practice, does horrible in school, and used to do drugs, not sure if he still does or not, and yeah not very fond of him.

and another thing that bothers me is that people are trying so hard to do things that make themself look like a captain. and it annoys me so much. Like one of the seniors decided to call on a team meeting to talk about problems we are having. and they made an announcement over the P.A. saying that cross country runners need to meet after school. and I’m just like WTF? first of all you are not a captain, and you are just trying to do something that will make you look good. and then I hate how people suck up and just try way too hard to impress the coach. It’s so annoying and immature. If he thinks you are a good person, he will see it and doesn’t need you to be in his face all the time. I guess the overall thing that is bothering me about the whole cross country situation is that we have several people who think they are captains and they aren’t. They try to do, act, plan, and talk as if they are a captain when they are not and it bugs the hell out of me.

I’ve just been annoyed with people in general lately. Immaturity is something that i’m ready to leave along with high school.

Christine Yvette Tiffany

missing money? 08.26.

5:37 pm Uncategorized

so my friend a.k.a the one that I always talk about on here LOL gave me $20 today for gas money. I have taken her to school for the past 2 weeks because her car is broken. Anywho, she lives like literally like 1 minute away from my house and its on the way to school. So it doesn’t really bother me. Its not like i have to go out of my way to get her. Well I gave it back to her and said that I didn’t need it, since to me, it would be rude to just keep $20 for gas when I dont even use that much gas to get her. Well I know she was trying to be nice, but I am nicER so I told her to keep it. she gave it back to me, and I was like no seriously I dont need it. (this is all happening while I am driving to school by the way) so when we get to the school she puts the $20 behind my cup holders by the passenger seat. Well I ALWAYS leave my car unlocked because i have manual doors and windows and its a pain to lock everything indiviudally by hand. and she knows that I never lock my car. I saw her do it from the corner of my eye because I was getting out the car. Well after practice, she said that someone stole my money. and I was like “what? the $20?” and shes like “yeah… ” Then she goes “yeah that sucks for you because that was your gas money.” and I was like “well I didn’t need it, thats why I gave it back to you. You put it there.” So she was trying to say it was my fault it got stolen. but when it was really her fault because she left it there and she knows my car is always unlocked. BUT at the same time i wish i could have been greedy and took the money, because now it belongs to some stranger not either one of us. so it was a lose lose situation! but what really pissed me off was knowing that someone was in my car. That just creeps me out. I mean I dont leave anything valuable in there usually. I think i’ve left my phone in the glove box a couple times, but yeah it’s never been stolen. I put way to much trust in people. I think that all people are good, and they wouldnt do anything bad. I really do need to see the reality of things. I have to be more catious about things like this. I mean like its just sickening that people do that. I mean i would understand if there was like $20 laying on the ground or something I’d probably take it. but it was IN my car. Like how rude, creepy, and disrespectful is it to go INTO someone’s car and take money out of it? I’m probably going to lock my doors from now on, even if it does take 5 minutes haha. but yeah just something i’ve been caught up about today. Well I guess I learned an important lesson today. Do not think all people are good! Be more cautious, and lock your doors! boo

Tiffany Yvette Ariel Dirrk Lucy